This afternoon was again Dreamtime. Finally got my soul back to process some of what I have recently experienced. When I awake
I had won was a realization: With all my efforts in recent years I have not come a step further. I am 01.12. changed exactly 10 years ago, the company and a little later the residence. The problems remained the same.
It's amazing how the same but now things are. A deja vu chases the next. An exemption from this is seemingly impossible. When I wanted to test a higher power, how far they can go with me. As if it were really true that I am controlled or someone tries to open certain doors in any case. Following permanent influence me for ages:
- I will not be released, it will only constantly threatened by the highest authority employees. But I remain spared from any layoffs - as if that were a matter of course for my guardian angel.
- I'm going to strain my pain level or beyond: The driving distance is getting longer, home office for me is minimized. The job is changing at ever shorter intervals, until one knows everything and does not lose the interest.
- My boss is an ass. Professionally and personally a zero. No matter who and in what company.
- At home would have much to be done, for which I've never been at the time and no one helps me / can help. The property management is unfriendly and not really responsive. Actually, one would have to move closer to work - what's not natural (for reasons that would take too long now).
- A new job would be great. But if I find something closer, then either the payment as lousy or the boss is so bad that I better leave undone.
- sex or even friendship will forever remain a dream. But it takes time and I did not. I am a bad friend, I know. Just because I have no time. What should I do?
- And politically? It's all gone in the wrong direction. Combat missions and welfare cuts were the main consequences of the Government to shift from coal Schroeder. Here, too, was my choice of the SPD in 1998, not helpful, but has a negative impact on my personal life and achieving my goals.
It seems to give it some kind of destiny. No matter what I do, it will not change for the better. So I stand with the little things. If I can not even break out of prison, I am at least as friendly to the other inmates. My dreams I will not forget and I do not begrudge anyone to be happier than I am.
-drops67-
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